"It kills me not to know this but I've all but just forgotten
What the color of her eyes were and her scars or how she got them
As the telling signs of age rain down a single tear is dropping
Through the valleys of an aging face that this world has forgotten
There is no reconciliation that will put me in my place
And there is no time like the present to drink these draining seconds
But seldom do these words ring true when I'm constantly failing you
Like walls that we just can't break through until we disappear

So tell me now
If this ain't love then how do we get out?
Because I don't know
That's when she said I don't hate you boy
I just want to save you while there's still something left to save
That's when I told her I love you girl
But I'm not the answer for the questions that you still have

But the day pressed on like crushing weights
For no man does it ever wait
Like memories of dying days
That deafen us like hurricanes
Bathed in flames we held the brand
Uncurled the fingers in your hand
Pressed into the flesh like sand
Now do you understand?

1000 miles away
There's nothing left to say
But so much left that I don't know
We never had a choice
This world is too much noise
It takes me under
It takes me under once again
I don't hate you
I don't hate you "

I'm drowning.

Let's Call It Change

Soon the men
Taste their own normalcy
Ends that day
Consumed by all
Irrational thoughts depend
Then shape their tastes

Photo of the Day:


i asked if you knew what it felt like to be dead for so long. you laughed, but your eyes betrayed you, revealing that dread that the darkness was slowly overwhelming the light.

Fortune Cookie of the Day:

You can only live once, but if you do it right, once is enough.

"Believe in me
I know you've waited for so long
Believe in me
Sometimes the weak become the strong
Believe in me
This life is not always what it seems
Believe in me
Cause I was made for chasing dreams"
-Believe, Staind


Believe in me.

Earth to Bella

Objective from October 11- November 26:















"Earth to Bella
This is a quiet emergency
Earth to Bella
There's so much more to get then wronged
Earth to Bella
You're treading water successfully
But are you really?
Don't you want to see the deep?
It's not so hard
Just forgive yourself and feel the water open in"
-Earth to Bella (Part II), Incubus

These were the days I was suppossed to get back on track. To start the burden of college essays, to catch up on work, and overall take a big, deep breathe of relief. Instead the waters are drowning me. AP Lit is a death trap.

Eric has finished his second book. The only awesome news I've received in a while.

One day, the giant hand will come out of nowhere, smack me over the head, and say "What were you thinking?"

I do not know.